I have to do a short presentation at work (probably a minute) at a staff meeting about some things I'm working on. It's 2 months away and I'm already dreading it a few times a day...I can't believe that something so "easy" is causing me such great pain! This is my career so it's not like I'm just going to never see these people again after the class finishes. This is so frustrating for me. Things keep coming up that are giving me cold sweats, like spontaneous "let's go around the table and each read a paragraph"- what a great idea, I'd rather break a bone or have surgery! So I've finally realized this phobia is ruining parts of my life completely, and it's starting to leak into other parts of my "good life". I have propranolol and I've taken it just to see what happens but I'm not entirely convinced it's going to help during the big moment of truth. I'm starting to think I need to do Toastmasters, but even that is just terrifying. I feel like I'm the only one in my area code with this problem, why couldn't I have another problem that is much easier to treat? This is so tough to beat and I feel like you lose all your dignity trying to face your fears because we all know the first public speaking experience is not going to be my shining moment. I just needed a place to vent. I'm in the first stages of change, and be forewarned it's not fun!