facing fears

i nearly had a panic attack today on the train, i can see how anxiety is going to get in the way of everything, was excited for uni but now, im dreading im goinna end up dropping out, becoming miserable.

it's going to stop me getting to know people that i really want to get to know and are trying to engage with me. this was confirmed today. extremely depressed by it. /;

what should i do? i was thinking buy nausea tabs and b-blockers (propranolol doesnt work and its the only theyll prescribe for sa, hurrah) so im more relaxed at least and just keep working at 'it'? tho id still be shaking and twitching it would ease some symptoms...

im such a ****ing cliche