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I feel I have no idea who I am - I try to think of good things about me to develop confidence, but there's just nothing to me. I mean, I try to be nice, but I'm not a "nice person". I workout a lot, but I'd never consider myself athletic. I have a decent job, but I don't identify with it at all.
I used to be very opinionated and strong-willed when I was younger, but it just fell away over time. And now sometimes I'll look in the mirror and see myself and think "Wow, I look professional" or "I actually look like someone strong and active", but I never feel any of those ways inside. I think it impacts my ability to relate to other people a lot - I have absolutely nothing to say about myself. No experiences to share, no preferences. I used to be able to entertain friends with the funny things that happened to me, but I feel like a blank person now. If someone asked me to tell them something about myself, I couldn't think of a thing - and it's not just because of anxiety.
I don't even know what I enjoy anymore. It may be because I've suffered from depression on and off for years and only recently felt better. Does anyone else relate? Did you find yourself again?
I used to be very opinionated and strong-willed when I was younger, but it just fell away over time. And now sometimes I'll look in the mirror and see myself and think "Wow, I look professional" or "I actually look like someone strong and active", but I never feel any of those ways inside. I think it impacts my ability to relate to other people a lot - I have absolutely nothing to say about myself. No experiences to share, no preferences. I used to be able to entertain friends with the funny things that happened to me, but I feel like a blank person now. If someone asked me to tell them something about myself, I couldn't think of a thing - and it's not just because of anxiety.
I don't even know what I enjoy anymore. It may be because I've suffered from depression on and off for years and only recently felt better. Does anyone else relate? Did you find yourself again?