Does it ever! It's like you are required to be social at church and I can't do that. It's sad but even after I got baptized every time I got home from church I would feel incredibly depressed and hate myself more for having SA. What's worst is that for some religions not going to church means that you will not be "saved". This used to cause me a lot of distress because my religion was like that so I thought I was doomed. Nevertheless, this has also caused me to question my own faith. I don't think I can ever participate in a church- I feel so awkward and out of place and I know I shouldn't feel that way but I can't help it.pm5kbebop said:I know S.A. prevents me from going to church...And not attending has hurt my faith in a major way.
I use to be, but now that I am in school there are no churches around with my religion. It wouldn't be a problem if I just went to church on Sundays because then I could just go to one of the many sunday services on campus. But I go to church on Saturdays and there are no services then.Jessie Phillips said:Yes, social anxiety has prevented me from attending church on some occasions. Sometimes I get into a flap and think I'll be a minute or two late, or I think there's something not quite right with my appearance and I have to sort it out - like anyone at church cares .... but I still sometimes end up not going at all.
But at least I sometimes manage to get to church. I feel for brownkeys who feels as though it's completely impossible. Can I ask: Are you in any kind of regular contact with a local church community at all?
thats exactly what happened to me. i haven't been since i was 16 because S.A. got in the way. :afrpm5kbebop said:I know S.A. prevents me from going to church...And not attending has hurt my faith in a major way.
Firedancer, I feel your pain. It's one thing to have a group of people that you gradually get to know and trust and then maybe can open up with. But to be randomly thrown in with people and have to pray is cruel and unusual to those of us with SA. And then when you can't make yourself pray, you just feel like a total loser for not being able to overcome your fear, and then you think everyone else must think that you're either a loser or don't love God enough to pray... It's just hard. :hideAnd forget bible study (that at one time I absolutely loved) because they changed the format and they get into prayer circles of 4-5 people afterwards
I don't think that you should feel like a fake or feel guilty about this, firedancer, or let other people make you feel guilty/fake. :squeezefiredancer said:...I cannot pray in front of anyone ... Sometimes I feel like a failure and a fake. And the guilt is killing me.
Yes. The main SA-related things that prevent me from going to church are:does SA prevent you from attending church?
Of course this is just one scripture I haven't really studied the issue. This reminds me though of the time I attended a couple WWCOG meetings in the early 90s. Boy did I feel like an outsider, they really didn't seem to know what to do with someone new. I had trouble even finding a place to sit down, there weren't even any extra chairs for somebody new. And then after the service everybody automatically got into their little cliques for "fellowship" . I just ended up walking out. And this was a group that a lot of other christians considered cultish. Well I think maybe some christian churches could maybe learn some things from some cults about making newcomers feel welcomed. :lolMat 6:5 And when you pray, you shall not be like the hypocrites. For they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, They have their reward.
Mat 6:6 But you, when you pray, enter into your room. And shutting your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father who sees in secret shall reward you openly.