Yeah, it feels like I've wasted my life but also that because I lived such a "sheltered" life I never learned the "social skills" everyone is supposed to learn by experiencing the ups and downs of social contact but persevering and now I have no idea how to act around peopleI feel like I'm 12 yrs old a lot of the time.
Not that I'm immature, but i can't really do things for myself (call the doctor, sort out banking issues. etc.). Everyone I know is headed away from their families to University. I am staying an extra year and even rarely leave the house without a family member or friend.
I'm the same age, and I feel like I could have written almost the exact same post. I feel like my only hope is someday meeting someone like us, realizing it, and helping each other make up for missed experiences. That doesn't seem likely though, since I don't meet many women, and the ones I do meet probably aren't the ones avoiding social situations.I definitely feel way behind other people. I'm 20 as well, and like someone already said, people my age have already had multiple relationship experiences like first boyfriend, first date, first kiss, losing virginity, etc. It's one of the biggest things that bothers me about my life, that twenty years down the line I'm probably still never going to know what it's like to have a boyfriend or kiss a guy. When do people normally have their first kisses? Like early teens?
Looking back on things, I've realized that I have been socially messed up my entire life. The difference is now I'm old enough to realize that I have never been good at socializing. And I see people who have no problems socializing and developed normally, and it hurts a lot. Especially being at college where you are just surrounded by people your own age and you can't overlook the differences between you and everyone else.
ditto to everything you saidYeah, it feels like I've wasted my life but also that because I lived such a "sheltered" life I never learned the "social skills" everyone is supposed to learn by experiencing the ups and downs of social contact but persevering and now I have no idea how to act around people
I know what you mean by feeling 12 yrs old. I definitely feel so immature and child-like at times. Of course then at other times I feel old as though I've wasted my life and haven't done enough by now.
For example, a lot of the time at college when I have a few hours off, I'd love to go and get something to eat somewhere, but even if I'm hungry I just can't do it... it's too much pressure. Especially somewhere like Subway. It's so complicated and has too much human interaction. There are so many kinds of bread etc. I just wanna say as little as possible, and get my food. Damnit I can't risk being asked a question that puts me on the spot. Don't you all wish that everything like that could just be automated and we could order food from a robot?
Cold unfeeling machines FTW.