I can't believe there's someone else that feels like this too. It's like you put into words how I feel all the time.
I'm 21 years old, a junior in college, and working at an investments company part time. I have to dress up every day in a suit, do investments related work (which is not my thing), try to look like I have a positive attitude, and somehow get through the day. I study finance/economics/business, which is not me...my parents really pressured me to study this in college and do this with my life that I don't really want to do.
I don't want to conform to the business world--it's too materialistic, and too much emphasis is on money and there is little creativity involved (no emotion either, except when someone gets excited when a stock goes up .001% and everyone jumps at the chance to buy or sell it to make their clients a little more money). Sometimes I feel like these people worry too damn much about money and don't enjoy what really matters in life, such as family, time, hapiness, fulfillment, etc.
I would love to be some kind of a musician who doesn't have a boss and makes his money how HE feels like it, gets up in the morning when HE wants to, does with his life what HE wants, and who gets the chance to experience as much in life as humanly possible instead of being stuck at work all day constantly worrying his life away about money and finances--I don't want to spend my life worrying when I'm 20 about my retirement when I'm 65. I don't want money to control me and determine every decision in my life. People spend their whole lives worrying about the future but never enjoy the present. They keep waiting and hoping that if they save enough, work hard enough, or do enough today, then someday they'll never have to worry about money again and they can just be lazy and sit there all day and do nothing. Bottom line--there's more to life than money--Americans have more money than ever but are unhappier than ever...there's a NEGATIVE correlation between money and hapiness.
Anyway, I could go on forever, but basically I feel like I'm naturally better at being creative--writing and music mostly, and also other ways--I would love to make a living doing this and be surrounded by people like me, but I just don't know how to make it happen.
However, if you're around the college age (and if you or your parents have a lot of money), try checking out Columbia College in Chicago (I'm not an advertiser for them , I swear!)...go to http://www.colum.edu...they're
a fine arts school that prides themselves on their passion for the arts. They've got some videos you can view on their website and the environment seems really exciting there--it seems like everyone there is really motivated and passionate about the arts and driven to succeed, and I'm sure there's a "culture" like what you're looking for there.
Ok, i'll stop now.