Jess said:
i know i dont have a simple mind because i think about heavy things, yet i am really not that observant or good at school (maybe just not good at studying or paying attention to class) it leaves me confused about my intellgience because usually both things go together it seems...anyone else feel this way?
Well, studying from the books is one thing for me... however, because I decide to exclude myself from social situations, I really don't have a good grasp of my surroundings or with whatever is going on in the world. So, when I'm in a social gathering, I don't have much to say because I don't know what's going on or "what's new".
I do talk more no matter where it is if I have an understanding of the conversation. However, if I can't grasp what people are talking about, then I feel I shouldn't embarrass myself by speaking up about an issue they are knowledgeable about. When I read some of the posts on this message board (mostly in the news section), I feel like I shouldn't be posting there for these reasons.
I've always had this issue with my intelligence. Sometimes I feel good and most times I don't. I think if I just gave myself more of a chance to be immersed in discussions, I would eventually pick up on things.
It really all comes down to whether I just want to accept that or not. So far, I haven't chose to do so. I'd really like to do so though because I'm missing a valuable part of my life (ya, im sure everybody else realizes that too).