I hate going to the doctors at the best of times. I don't think I've ever gone by myself I've had a relative or friend with me. I have to go to the doctors tomorrow to discuss my eating disorder and figure out how to get help. I'm freaking out! I'm nervous about talking to a perfect stranger about an actual illness but when it's a self inflicted one. I'm terrified. What do I say? Do I say I think I have an eating disorder or I make myself sick I don't know how to put it I hate that it's a part of me it makes me hate myself. How in the world can I explain. Should I say I think I have an eating disorder... I have a problem dealing with things? and wanted to see if I could get some help, or get referred for some help...? And what am I supposed to do when I check in... what am I meant to say I can't remember. I'm really stressing out. And everythings so ****ed I don't feel that motivated.