I'm severely depressed as a result of my SA which causes social isolation and prevents me from functioning in the occupational world. I am firm in my belief that I'll never date. I'll never have friends. I'll never have kids, if I'd even want them. I'll never be able to function occupationally.
Normal folk might not want to live if they led such impoverished lifestyles. You'll often hear normal folks go on and on about how they "don't know what they'd do without their friends." Well, if they want to know what they'd do they can just ask me.
yes, it would be SO MUCH easier to just give up and die. i too am struggling occupationally as my dream is to become a vet, yet just last week i was laid off from my placement as they said i was too quiet and didnt ask enough questions (if only they knew!). as much as it was a kick in the teeth and made me hate my life and SA, having had time to reflect on it it has only made me more determined to overcome my SA and live a normal life and achieve my dreams.
just have to stay strong.