blah blah blah and stuff and blah? Uninterested and blah blah and just depressed and blah blah blah blah bad mood all the time and don't care and pee and stuff and blah? And cigarettes and sugar and blah blah blah drinking coffee and and just passive and outsider blah blah and not wanting anything. And then drug fantasies blah blah blah blue skies and sunny and another wasted summer and blah blah blah cold water and the salty fresh air and boats and crap and seagulls and stuff. And opinions and talking and blahblah blah and dont care and dont know and dont understand blah blah and wanna crawl into a corner and bury yourself in a pile of things and wishing you were just wasted out of your mind and blah blah blah and you desperately wish you were just stark raving mad blah blah slack-jawed lunatic who could just walk around in a drug-induced psychotis state and talk to people about the goddamn weather and work and blah blah blah tedious local crap you would normally wanna tear off you own skin to get away from??