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The main problem i have is racing thoughts and not being able to control my thoughts and i just cnt make my mind stop and shut the hell up... sometimes it wont let me concentrate or focus on a conversation or on what im doing so i do things wrong or i say something i regret... sometimes i cnt read a paragraph and remember what i read cause my mind is trippy.. the thoughts are usually anxious, negative thoughts... i think ive had OCD as a lil kid so maybe SA mixed with SA causes this?? or maybe i have ADD or bipolar idk??

its a really big problem for me.. sometimes i have to avoid human contact cause my mind isnt relaxed enough to focus on the convo and i usually get anxious about that.. like an example.. if someone makes a joke about me ill be relaxed enough to concentrate that ill realize its just a joke and ill laugh it off or say something back but when my stupid mind is on when i hear something like that ill stay quiet and ill just think and usually a physical symptom comes in... man im just so frustrated and stuck right now... i try to meditate but its so hard for me to focus cause ill get thoughts coming in..this is what usually happens.. ill try to meditate and focus on meditating but then my mind wonders of thinking "how will my therapist react if i tell her about my racing thoughts?" "what if someone walked in here and saw me meditating they i will look wierd" "man its so hard for me to focus what if i have a second disorder?" its just so hard to quiet my mind and not think of nothing..

im on meds im on lexapro 10mg and seroquel xr 50mg.. they have helped me think clearly and realize that how my mind works isnt normal.. im thinking of taking that one med adderall.. it seems to quiet alot of peoples minds... i just want my mind to relax... and then when im finally relaxed and i go somewere and something happens that makes me anxious ill start thinking alot again and dwelling and my mind wont stop again its a never ending cycle and moodswings... this is a really big problem for me.. i need to tell my therapist and psychiatrist as soon as possitble before i go crazy i just cnt take it anymore... am i alone feeling like this?
 

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Sounds like OCD to me. I have the same thing. I get these intrusive, racing thoughts that drive me crazy. Do you also tend to ruminate? For instance, do you tend to think about past negative events over and over again in an obsessive way? Or obsess over some small detail? Something that "just isn't right", and you can't get it out of your mind?

Meditation has helped me somewhat. It would help even more if I could make myself practice everyday. But it has slowed down the thoughts somewhat. I find that caffeine can make it much worse. Also certain medications, like some of the SSRI's I've tried. They were too stimulating for me and would give me bad obsessive thoughts.
 
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