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Hello all,

I have an interesting feeling or thought that I occasionaly experience and am curious to see if anyone else shares similar occurrences.

This is more of what I like to think of as a positive of having Social Anxiety Disorder.

This isn't an everyday feeling unfortunately.

But, if it were;it would be much easier to live and deal with SAD.

Anyhow, the feeling and thought that I am talking about is sort of a Social Anxiety Disorder survivor mentality.

What I mean by this is that I can be anxious and stressed out for a period of months and out of nowhere I will get this almost aha-esque moment where I kind of feel superior to all of society; minus my other counterparts with SAD and similar ailments.

This feeling to me is like a self-proclaimed Jesus moment where I feel like I am going through so much more pain and suffering than the average person would ever be able to minutely comprehend or fathom. Sometimes I feel as though I am being mentally crucified and my purpose on earth is to be a vehicle for this ailment. I say this because so many others may not be strong enough or possess the willpower and resolve to champion this debilitating torment.

When I have these moments I feel extremely strong about myself and it kind of instills me with zeal and strength to continue this miserable life of mine in hope that things will get better.

I may just be totally bjorked up or clinging to a victim mentality.

Does anyone else ever feel like this?
 

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i think i know what you mean, and it is a pretty interesting feeling and would be great if the feeling lasted longer!! but, maybe the long gaps between it helps make it so good?
anyway, i have moments like that (often in the shower?!) where i feel like i might be going through this to strengthen who i am and eventually become who i am "destined to be" to help so many people around the world! lol/
had a moment like that a few months ago, where i thought i could change the world for all SA sufferers somehow. could have just been hypomania, but i'm trying not to cling to the idea of bi-polar disorder too much till i see a therapist.
but i do have less ambitious but just as enlightening moments :)
 

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Hi TheUnwelcome,

To me, it sounds as though you are rightfully proud of the fact that you are tough enough mentally to take what life is throwing at you at times.

When I reflect on some of my own experiences, I do see it as a positive that I have been strong enough to survive (sometimes with scars), and in some cases find out that I can overcome. This gives me hope.
 
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