By positive role model, I mean not necessarily your parents. Maybe a sister, brother, family friend etc. Did you feel you had one and could come to them for anything? If not, do you think it would of helped you? I sometimes wonder how much this impacts a person's likelihood of developing SA. Growing up, I was an only child and I did not develop an emotional bond with either of my parents and really had no one I looked up to in general. In alot of ways, I felt like I was swimming in a never-ending sea of confusion growing up and never felt comfortable talking about my feelings to anyone. How about you?