I know how that is. Actually applying for the job is a lot more fulfilling because it feels good to know you're trying. But once you finally get the job you come face to face with the impending doom.Wow, does this topic speak to me. I work in a pubic service office and as soon as I was notified I was selected for the job, after over a year applying for it, I was terrified. (Some might think this odd as apparently I wanted the job). Once I got in there, the lack of training and resultant stress had me strung out. Ever since I was a child I've had anxiety/stress/self confidence issues. I also allowed kids to pick on me mercilessly at school without standing up for myself. This job is making me sick. I worry daily, including weekends. I cant quit because I have financial obligations but I don't want to live like this. I am on prescribed psych pills (about six of them), and I see an counselor regularly. It's interesting to see that others also face this situation. I'm going to start going to Emotions Anonymous meetings this week in hopes that will help. Any other suggestions from the Forum? I'm scared, nervous and sick about all of this...
At my last job I was forced into financial obligation and had to remain on, there were many times when I wanted to walk out but would go try and cool off in the bathroom. It was a very social white-collar position that involved a lot of talking with many different people, basically a Hell for someone like me.
Eventually I completely broke down and quit out of shame.