And for the 83rd ****ing time, I do not give up. I have grit. I don't back down, I don't give up on myself. I keep searching, keep doing the work. When I'm knocked the **** down, I wallow for a few weeks and I get the **** back up and keep pushing forward. No one will fight for me but me. I'm the last, best and only chance I've got and I matter enough to keep going. *plays we are the champions in the background* Not going down without a fight!