Well I don't consider myself as having friends or acquaintances, though I guess I could call a few people acquaintances. But that sucks, I'd much rather have one or two good friends I can actually talk to and call up and be myself around than people who I'm just polite with.
me too. i only have close friends. i cant do the half half thing. like its either you will be my new really good friend or we dont click enough to hold a conversation. and its my fault. because of the SA.
but...people say thats not a bad thing but it is when you run out of people to hang out with. im usually at home .idk why. i hang out with my friends sometimes but i get bored so.
its very hard for me to have and keep friends so the very few CLOSE friends i have, i make sure im very close to them and i totally flip when i lose one of them. i can never make new friends, in fact all my friends i have known them at least over 3 years. im very tired of this and i understand completely where your coming from!
I have two friends. They live interstate. :clap genius!
But I can definitely relate. I dont keep casual friends easily at all. With casual friend it's all the difficult stuff with less of the (easier) good. There's less (needed) trust, understanding, structure etc. And then lovers/partners are easier and better again - same reasons but intensified. Blatantly knowing someone loves/adores you is a pretty good vaccination against anxiety. How terrible!