I've been dealing with depression for awhile now and over time I've become angry and bitter over the past and now. There are times I feel happy ,but most of the time I do it to keep my mind off negative things and the happiness only stays temporarily. I've been blocked from numerous call centers cause of my use of language with the counselors. I'm mad at myself cause of the past and the things I've done. I believe I deserve to be treated badly and to be looked down on and I'm lesser than a human being and don't have the same equality. I'm a horrible worthless person who everyone should hates. I know I haven't done worse things like kill, raped, or robbed a bank, but I still believe I should be treated like a criminal/felon. I don't deserve any love and care in my life because it's not for me. I wish it can be different, but it is what it is.