[orwen2000]

Today I did something I never did before: I called my clinic and set myself an appointment with my family's physician.
I haven't been to a doctor for something like 7-8 years, I think, because I hardly get sick or feel bad (thankfully), and calling places when I don't absolutely have to scares me.
But my parents have been telling me I should go and have some blood tests run on me just in case. Since I don't exactly try to live healthy, I hardly do any exercise, then I might be at risk.

Anyway, this simple call took a huge amount of thinking and planning... I began to think about it 3 months ago, discussed it with at least 4 people, tried to find out exactly what to say, what's the exact procedure, the correct terms to use. Then I postponed it again and again until a time when I'd feel good enough.

Unfortunately, something went wrong... Apparently, because I haven't been there for so much time, my name didnt' even appear on the list of the clinic's patients! I panicked for a while but the receptionist said she found it and fixed it and it's gonna be ok. I really hope so... :afr

But guess what, I was actually pretty sure of myself, I didn't stutter, I didn't speak in a hushed voice, I think I sounded pretty much self assured, even though I was shaking inside all the time.

I know this sounds stupid, but I think this is one of the first "adult" things I did by myself.

 

[glittergaze]

It doesn't sound stupid at all. You did great! :banana

 

[millenniumman75]

Orwen2000,

That's great, man! - :boogie :boogie :boogie! Everything from here on out will be just fine.

 

[Anatomica]

good job Orwen, I was really nervous the first time I made an appointment as well.

 

[orwen2000]

:thanks guys!
I've also had a pretty good start to the week at work, so now I'm in an even better mood

 

[meggiehamilton]

Awww thats great to hear. :banana

 

[orwen2000]

Well, I went there, and it wasn't a complete disaster. Ok, it wasn't a disaster at all. I just talked for about 5 minutes with the doctor, she set me a date for the blood tests etc. next week, and we chatted for about 2 minutes about what I do for a living and whether I still live with my parents. She said that she couldn't wait to get away from her parents' place after she graduated. I just smiled, shrugged politely and said I don't mind them. I think was pretty sure of myself, I didn't stutter, didn't speak in a low voice, and I even asked her twice about the location of the nurses' station (I'm usually too scared to ask about things even once).

But... I had entered an hour after my appointed time, because there was an old lady inside who stayed long after her appointed time, and also 2 people entered her office without an appointment, and people whose appointment was after me got annoyed with me for letting these people shove their way.

Also with me there were three people aged 70+ who kept talking about the "bad youth of today and all that violence in our schools" and "what's the world coming to" and how the 50's were such a great time despite all the hardships... and they occasionally turned to me to ask me what I think. It wasn't a very pleasant way to wait for my turn. Even though it was kind of amusing, now that I think of it.