ive delt with this a whole lot, and still do...
i wouldnt say i go beat red anymore...
i mean, i dont want to preach, just take your own advice and keep getting help...
all i did was kept trying untill i couldnt take it anymore and i got suicidle and so on and so forth...
so now im perscribed to klonopin and lexapro and it does help...
trying to overcome negetive thoughts can also help, and breathing techniques...
good luck, i hope things get better with you...