[LonerRichy]

i seem to struggle with both of these problems it seems though on my bipolar situation i only get manic when im useing drugs heavily which ive stopped but it makes me very delisuinal and out of the ordinary right now i am very depressed ive noticied i started to have social anxiety about 3 years ago and i go through these periods of times where i stay in the house and conversate with noone its really pain ful but i feel i cant conversate with people my depression has given me no intrests in life and therefore i have no intrests in what people are saying so there is no way to respond i dont want it to be like this but thats just how it is someitmes ill have an old friend call me on the phone and i try to avoid gettin on it because i know they will notice a change in me because i will be so quiet and when they ask me what i have been up too i have nothing to say because really all ive been doing is sleeping and try to watch tv and movies but i just cant get into them every now and then i read an article in the paper but reading is just not sumthing i ever really enjoyed doing but i was wondering if anyone is going through anything similar like this i feel like there is no hope in getting over this i tryed using drugs again but it didnt make me happy like it use to fill in the gap b4 so now i need to figure out a way to do without i know its ridiculous that im saying marijuana was the only way for me to cope with this but now i truly know its not so is there anything else i can do i mean im so afraid of trying new things and meeting new people even meeting people that use to know me frightns me its awful well thats all i have to say for now

 

[ChrissyQ]

Same with me! Well not drugs or Bipolar but I can really relate with everythng else you said!

 

[jer]

Hey LonerRichy,

Drugs can aggravate the bi-polar or schizophrenia issues.
Try to wean off it. maybe try medications instead.

 

[stealyourface722]

i feel liek crap too. Im bipolar also, and its a horrible disease if it isnt treated. The meds suck for me... and the ones that work cause me unbearible side effects. I feel like giving up for now and probably will. I need a god damn break from this bs. Theres no way out of this hell hole. My mind races a mile a minute yet I feel horrible. Pretty sure its a mixed state.
eventually we will find some peace, keep on keepin on

 

[DinahD2009]

Hi,

I'm also bipolar. I've found myself caught up in these vicious thinking patterns over the summer. To the point where I too don't want to pick up the phone to friends or return messages on facebook to people because I don't have anything to say. What would I say? "Oh I'm doing horrible but thanks for asking". Ive learned not to share my mental illnesses with anyone. I had a few close 'friends' use it against me. It isolated me terribly.

Just please know you are not alone. Lately I've been taking comfort in trying to find meaning and purpose in spirtuality. Try to find something other than drugs that interests you.

I'm relieved to hear that other poeple are dealing with the same circumstance (of bipolar as well as SA) I defintely feel like the SA over shadows my bipolar though. If anyone could comment on their experiences with bi-polar and SA I'd love to hear it

 

[slkjao]

hey richy i dont have bipolar but i can understand to what ur going through with the thought of dread of having to call back ur friends. I hate it so much when they ask me, "what u been up to" and all i can respond with is "nothing" thats usually my answer and it is embarrassing. i usually dont say much over the phone to so im worried they think that they are boring me which of course they're not i just dont like talking over the phone and its gets real awkward with me calling them but uhhh not saying anything!? my mind literally goes blank most of the time haha

 

[MissMay1977]

I am diagnosed bi polar. I know what the depression feels like. What I find helpful for me when I am in a depressed state is to observe the emotion ( depression ) as something outside my body. I don't let it consume me.

I also practice mindfulness which is " being in the moment" and not thinking about the past or future just focusing on the moment. I also have a depression distraction plan.

In fact, I have an entire box ( shoe box) filled with things that distract me from depression and help soothe me when I am in a manic phase. For racing thoughts, try counting backwards from a 100 by 3's. Also try observing and describing in as much detail as you can an object in your room. Also writing your racing thoughts down helps as well.

Keep your head up and hang in there! With the proper med combination- you can live a joyful life.