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Are you doing better or worse then when you first joined sas? Me I joined in november 2003 and I was actually somewhat happy back then. I wasn't blissfully happy, but I was happy somewhat and had hope for the future. I even had a real life friend and I certainly never went weeks let alone months without leaving the house. If someone then would've asked me where I'd be 5 years from now I certainly never would've pictured my life this bad.
And now...now I have nothing. I don't even have online friends really, I mean well I do but none close. None that would be devestated if something happened to me 1 day. Everyone I've ever gotten close to has ended up hating me so much that they pretend I'm dead already. Whats more annoying is they all hurt me first with their lies yet their the ones that hate me. The only people who have anything to do with me do so out of obligation or because they feel sorry for me.
Anyway I have no hope for the future. I'll never have a boyfriend, I'll never have a job, I'll never have real life friends, I'll never have close online friends, I'll never have any money, I'll never be independent. I will however have some "excitment" when I die on the streets from homelessness in 20 or so years.
And now...now I have nothing. I don't even have online friends really, I mean well I do but none close. None that would be devestated if something happened to me 1 day. Everyone I've ever gotten close to has ended up hating me so much that they pretend I'm dead already. Whats more annoying is they all hurt me first with their lies yet their the ones that hate me. The only people who have anything to do with me do so out of obligation or because they feel sorry for me.
Anyway I have no hope for the future. I'll never have a boyfriend, I'll never have a job, I'll never have real life friends, I'll never have close online friends, I'll never have any money, I'll never be independent. I will however have some "excitment" when I die on the streets from homelessness in 20 or so years.