Why is it that I can't be in a bar or a club for a long period of time. Its almost like my brain has some sort of timer that is programmed. It sucks the bag, at my friends birthday right now as I type. And all I can think about is home. Why is that people could party all night and laugh and dance all night but I'm struggling. Got this hot chick all up in my face but I can't do anything. This other hot chick just tap me on the shoulder and I'm stuck, can't pick myself up, can't respond, scared to death. What is this? Social anxiety is a beast.