Still Waters· Little Winged One
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Yesterday I ran into someone I've always hoped to be friends with. It never really works into a friendship(because of my horrible social skills). The thing I noticed was that instead of feeling sad - I pretty much felt nothing. -Sort of like when the dentist gives you a shot to perform some work. - You do feel something in that particular area,but it is'nt pain. I realized I'm feeling this way more and more often. I never thought I'd say this,but I miss the intensity of feelings. That feeling that no one hurts as deeply as you do,that happiness that feels as if you've won the lottery.Euphoria that feels as if it will last forever! At first-I thought this is great-I'm maturing, developing more control over my feelings! On second thought I realized I'm without much feeling. - I keep hearing about "mellowing" as you age.- I'm wondering if it is'nt just numbing out. Just a gradual deadning until you become less like a person and more like a thing.