Aww! :squeeze OP don't let it get you down. I felt the same many times at past jobs as well as my current one, especially when it comes to handling cashier duties. Although I'm not particularly awful at math, I still am afraid I'll totally f up...and then I sometimes do make little mistakes here and there that make me feel that I am in fact incompetent due to my nervouseness...I guess I sorta psyche myself out. Similarly to you, this usually occurs when I am clearly being critiqued/watched by a manager figure at work and are scared of what they'll think of me. I also think this issue may have stemmed the constant criticism I have experienced since childhood for not doing some things to people's liking, or for some reason never being seen as good enough. It doesn't help I was often mocked too whether I was doing good or not.I want to know if other people are able to function normally when asked to do certain tasks. Personally, I haven't been able to do it. My anxiety is bad to a point where I can't even wash a dish in front of someone without being too nervous that I'm doing it wrong. When I'm by myself I have no trouble because there is nobody there to judge me, but having someone looking over my shoulder, and yes people have done this before, makes me 10x nervous to the point where I can't even function. I think a lot of that comes from the fact that I was criticized a lot as a child for "messing up" things.
Same here! This is totally me in this situation. I'm so afraid I'll seem incompetent that I actually look incompetent, and it doesn't help that sometimes I tend to make mistakes to only encourage this thinking when I worry. It's a vicious cycle that feels impossible to break.Not really, I mean im so nervouse becouse someone is watching me that I start doing things wrong....., and really slow.......
Hang in there. If anything that is a great job to have to constantly be forced to deal with your SA, and be able to practice on new people everyday. Better than being completely alone at a desk talking to no one, then you won't make any progress.
I'd rather a cozy, isolated desk job than where I've had to work any day! :boogieHang in there. If anything that is a great job to have to constantly be forced to deal with your SA, and be able to practice on new people everyday. Better than being completely alone at a desk talking to no one, then you won't make any progress.
Ooooh! That's brutal! Ya, I had my own call centre work experience years ago and it sucked a**. One of my worst jobs ever (and I've had a lot of crappy jobs)! I was working telesurveying and people were so rude! They would cuss you out, hang up on you in the middle of your sentence, and make obnoxious remarks about the way I talked, asking things like, "Do you even know how to speak English properly?", because I would stutter sometimes due to my nervousness or talk fast. It definitely took a toll on the self-esteem. It's nice to see you're at least paid well, because I sure wasn't. Not for me...never again!
I hated my call center job. I often cried on the way to work. It was brutal. I think I lasted six months. I was always nervous - hated taking that new call. Sorry, I'm probably not helping you! Just wanted you to know that I can relate.