[niko]

my job was physically demanding and i would push myself as hard as i could sometimes. some days i would be so seized and banged up i could barely walk or sleep at night. it was my way of earning my keep, since i felt i was not deserving.
if i do anything, even housework, i'll push myself to work hard and do a perfect job, just to earn the right to be there.

Double-Ditto.