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Hi, I am new here. I have social phobia since childhood and its killing me am becoming insane. I have no social life, am sitting in 4 corners of my room all the day and now i have turned nocturnal.
I am 22 male from India so pls forgive me for my poor english skills as i speak\write 4 other languages. Am so damn frustrated and depressed i feel theres no way out..
I never had gf or even good frends, during childhood i was treated badly by my parents. During my teenage years too my parents and my church treated me very badly just because i didnt agree with their fundie religious view of life. I will never forget the mental torture inflicted on me
I have one brother, he is very social and is enjoying his life an am getting rotten here. I was always criticized, ridiculed and made to feel guilty and always lived in perpetual depression and guilt during my entire childhood and teenage years... and now my social phobia is killing me. I dont even get out of house
I tried sucide but failed. I feel like looser now, even though i have acheived more than my frends and brother in academics and music. I play lead guitar in local heavy metal band, but because of my social anxiety i didnt give my band what they call "stage presence" and they all got pissed off... i was shaking with fear during my performance.
I am extremly depressed with this lonely life in **** third world country. I think am becoming insane cause since past 1 week i have started torturing pigeons until they bleed. I stay with my parents, i dont have job now and they will never understand my "social phobia" they will just ridicule me
I feel am result of bad parenting. In early school days i wasnt like this and now am extremly anxious about social situtations, depressed and sadistic.
I hope my insanity and frustration wont lead me to kill my parents or go on killing random people
and sorry for ranting..
I am 22 male from India so pls forgive me for my poor english skills as i speak\write 4 other languages. Am so damn frustrated and depressed i feel theres no way out..
I never had gf or even good frends, during childhood i was treated badly by my parents. During my teenage years too my parents and my church treated me very badly just because i didnt agree with their fundie religious view of life. I will never forget the mental torture inflicted on me
I have one brother, he is very social and is enjoying his life an am getting rotten here. I was always criticized, ridiculed and made to feel guilty and always lived in perpetual depression and guilt during my entire childhood and teenage years... and now my social phobia is killing me. I dont even get out of house
I tried sucide but failed. I feel like looser now, even though i have acheived more than my frends and brother in academics and music. I play lead guitar in local heavy metal band, but because of my social anxiety i didnt give my band what they call "stage presence" and they all got pissed off... i was shaking with fear during my performance.
I am extremly depressed with this lonely life in **** third world country. I think am becoming insane cause since past 1 week i have started torturing pigeons until they bleed. I stay with my parents, i dont have job now and they will never understand my "social phobia" they will just ridicule me
I feel am result of bad parenting. In early school days i wasnt like this and now am extremly anxious about social situtations, depressed and sadistic.
I hope my insanity and frustration wont lead me to kill my parents or go on killing random people
and sorry for ranting..