[nph53]

So my main question is....how to cope with SA when everything around me seems so perfect and yet I still feel as pathetic as i felt 2 years ago?
How not to feel like an hypocrite?
I'm I lying to myself and everyone around me? Is that what everyone else does?
Btw, none of my new friends or those I got involved with since my meltdown have any idea bout my SA.

my two cents is that you're putting alot of pressure on yourself to make this work. wanting to better yourself doesn't make you a hypocrite, nor is your SA past something to be ashamed of.