I understand why that would suck. Maybe you can work toward restructuring your life to be more true to yourself. If your job is your main source of stress, possibly looking for work where you deal with people less, or if socializing is your biggest stress, drop some of your friends.For those of you who think I should just be grateful, i guess you don't get it.
This enormously painful feeling of loneliness and awkwardness still follows me around. Believe me, I rather be alone period than surrounded by people and still feel alone.:blank
I don't know how much longer I can keep this up...
my two cents is that you're putting alot of pressure on yourself to make this work. wanting to better yourself doesn't make you a hypocrite, nor is your SA past something to be ashamed of.So my main question is....how to cope with SA when everything around me seems so perfect and yet I still feel as pathetic as i felt 2 years ago?
How not to feel like an hypocrite?
I'm I lying to myself and everyone around me? Is that what everyone else does?
Btw, none of my new friends or those I got involved with since my meltdown have any idea bout my SA.
Yeah...i guess it's more an identity crisis than an SA one.Maybe you do need to stay true to yourself, like the previous poster mentions. Tell me when you find out exactly how. The concept of 'self' is difficult to understand.
'Nd I can relate. It's hard to act out a role in society. But sometimes you have to please society. I try not to make a big deal out of it... which is pretty hard for the socially anxious... but it is possible.
My friend, maybe you and I are experiencing an identity crisis?