I have a therapy appointment today, this will be my first time back in therapy after almost a year. I had lost hope in therapy and everything else for a while. I really hope that both of us will benefit from therapy. I will have to let you know how it goes after today. And you shouldn't be embarrassed or think about deleting your posts, i just found this forum and by reading what others have to say, especially you, gave me enough courage to reach out for help and be brave enough to talk about my problems on here as well. I think we are a part of the right forum and we are both going to meet others like us so we can all help each other get through this. But anyway thank you so much for replying back, you have no idea how much that means to me.