Ive recently found out ive SA but all along ive been doing everything i needed to be doing to get past this without ever knowing id SA i was just doing what i knew i needed to be doing. I discovered i had SA through a fello dj friend of mine, i watched a video he uploaded on You Tube about his phobia and it blew me away, he was describing my life in detail
my muted existence in primary school, i would keep to myself afraid to speak to anyone, avoid almost everyone, i was like that kid in american beauty without the plastic bag as a friend lol
I was depressed, very badly so for a long long time and nobody every knew why, i even had a physiologist as a kid for awhile, and it kind of ticks me off that she could not figure out id SA maybe it was not well known back then :S By my late teens i was a walking corpse, i didnt really care about anyone, a close friend of mine died in a car crash and my attitude was like 'meh' **** happens, id no emotion thats how far i was gone. Mentally i was in a dark cave and i could not see any light let alone want to find any.
Im not sure when it happened but it was like something turned off or turned on inside me, it was like because i have been at rock bottom mentally for so long that it really does not matter what people think of me anymore,...who cares! Its kind of hard to describe everything, to get everything out, my memory is very blurred i think i did block so much out, i made myself forget i was so unhappy for a very long time. But anyway the only way i can describe how i changed (that one day 3 years ago) is to say i was reborn, something ticked and i decided to set some goals for myself, i read my fist book (David Wolfe - The Nine Principles of Living in Natural Magic) which is an amazing book but what amazed me more was he talks so much about setting goals in it and how good they are. Jan 08 i gave up smoking and im still of them cigis, i also started going to the gym and im still going every week. I also went down this healthy eating route and i love it, super foods are the bizz!
June 08 i decided to go for another goal, i want to be a DJ/Producer so since then until now i have been saving every penny i have to get into a private college to study sound engineering and music tech, thats for the producing side of things, ive got the djing side sorted already, living in my little room with my turn tables for along time now XD
So basically the last year has been an amazing goal setting journey which i stuck with, stayed on track like somebody training for the Olympics, 3-4 days a week in the gym, healthy foods, i still had the problems with socializing and the fact im going to college at the end of September and have to meet a bunch of new people and get very close and personal in a music studio for a year was scaring the life out of me but i didnt think about it i didnt want to i just wanted to keep doing what i was doing,,.... but then in April of this year i was speaking with friends, and they know how i am shy... but they also knew im very open to anything really so they told me about what they have been practicing for the past few years and how it has completely changed their lives,.. Transcendental Meditation. They told me of a friend of theirs that was just like me (maybe he has SA i dont know) but they said after only a few weeks of TM he was a completely different guy, a happy guy they said you could see it in his face, a big smile all the time and now he is out doing volunteer work for some groups and he is even in a band. It didnt take me long to decide that i wanted to try this, i was not put of by the price tag either because i dont put a price on happiness, who would really! So i used some of my college money i had saved up and learnt how to practice TM.
5 and a half months later and i cant honestly describe how happy i am that i decided to do TM, it has completely changed my life, Im not afraid to talk to people anymore, anyone! Infact the only issue i have now is not being able to talk about anything because ive been a mute for so long, but hey thats just another goal ill be setting for myself
Through TM i have lost my anxiety, my fear factor,... its like i dont care what people think, it does not boder me one bit, ive got this blissful joyful happiness coming out from within me that even now as i write this is putting a smile on my face, im not used to all of this but i love it
There is so many famous people that practice this too, moby, paul McCarthy, the beach boys singer, Hugh Jackman there is loads more too i just cant think of them off the top of my head. This isnt just a tool to kill anxiety, it helps you gain so much creativity too, theres so much to it, its ''a tool to develop a higher state of consciousness'' eh right im going to give you as much info on TM as i can because if one person can get what i have out of this its worth while.
TM Programme at a Glance
There is a rich, unbounded field of creativity, energy, and intelligence within each of us. To the degree we’re able to draw from this inner field of life, we grow in health, happiness, and success in our outer life.
Your Unlimited Potential
The Transcendental Meditation technique is a simple, natural procedure to gain deep rest— and contact that inner reservoir of creativity, energy and intelligence—to gain its support in all you do and to enrich your life day by day.
Everyone can learn to practice the Transcendental Meditation technique successfully. It’s easy and enjoyable—just 20 minutes twice a day sitting comfortably with the eyes closed. It requires no effort or concentration, no special skills or change of lifestyle. You don’t even have to believe that it works! Meditate regularly twice a day and you’ll get results.
During the practice of the Transcendental Meditation technique, the mind and body settle down to experience a unique state of restful alertness. As the mind becomes more silent, the body becomes deeply relaxed. At the most settled state of awareness, the mind transcends all mental activity to experience the simplest form of awareness, Transcendental Consciousness.
Scientific research has shown that the experience of Transcendental Consciousness is correlated with greater creativity, improved learning, higher IQ, better grades, higher moral reasoning, increased brainwave coherence, and improved neurological functioning of the body.
The Transcendental Meditation technique is a practical, proven procedure for developing more energy, creativity, and intelligence—for awakening the unlimited potential of your mind and body and enjoying greater health, happiness, and success in life.
Here are You Tubes vids for you to look at
John Hagelin ph.D (one smart dude)
Film Director David Lynch
Maharishi Mahesh Yogi (the guy who brought TM to the western world)
Hugh Jackman and Howard Stern (on OCD)
Are all meditations the same?
I really cant say enough about TM, and im no tree hugging hippy im just a guy...
Well i hope some of this can help