"There is defeat in every victory" How I asked somebody out
I have a problem with dates outside the first date. Let me clarify: I've come so far that I no longer have much problems asking girls out on a first date. I don't have much problems having sucessful first dates. But my problem is what comes after, namely nothing. I'm just too scared to take things further. Either I just completley lose touch with the girl or we just end up as friends. (as an aside, this is not a post lamenting "friend zoning" as I know it's my own damn fault for not trying to take things further)
Last week I started at a new university, on a different continent. There, during orientation I met this girl from my class. We chatted, then I asked her out for dinner, we ate together and the tone was light and fun and we both seemed to enjoy ourselves. So far so good. So I told my self that I WILL try to ask her out again for a second date no matter what. I saw met her in class today for the first time since we had dinner.
Immediately my inner monologue started racing first it was all "Dude, there she is, just ask her out, don't be a coward, this is what you need! Come on!". But I stalled, couldn't really find the right moment. So my other inner monologue started to chime in: "Dude, what if she says no? What if it's awkward to try to date a class mate? She probably has a boyfriend back home. What if it's too late, or too soon?!" This "fight" went on for some time until I decided enough is enough, I'm just gonna ask her out, and I devised a way to ask her out...
... this is how it went:
Tripple Step: So, Debbie, you're a pretty cultured lady right?
Debbie: Excuse me? What do you mean? [English is not Debbie's first language]
TP: Ehh, cultured...?
D: What do you mean...?
TP: Anyways I was wondering if you'd join me in checking out some of [the city's] art galleries?
D: Oh, is this a group outing?
TP: No, it's just me asking you.
D: So you mean like today?
TP: [Stares at Debbie with a preplexed look for a good 10 seconds because "today" was the last answer he'd expect]
Yeah... pretty damn awkward... BUT! When the conversation continued we agreed on going to the art galleries this weekend.
Walking home from class I couldn't help but berate myself. I thought to my self how incredibly awkward the whole exchange was, how I was an idiot for even trying this and so on. Then I suddenly stopped in my tracks and thought to my self "I actually did this, I actually tried to properly date a girl! Even if she'd say no it'd still be an sucess, just beacuse I dared to do soemthing I was afraid of. Also she said yes, so that's that."
I didn't really learn anything new, but this experience confirmed two important lessons in a brilliant way:
1. Being afraid of something is all the more reason to try to do it. By creating a habit out of something scary, it will no longer be scary in the long run.
2. There is defeat in every victory, and victory in every defeat. What I did was by all means a victory, but still I insisted on treating it like a defeat. Don't be too harsh with yourself. It all comes down to attitude.
I hope my little story will help others find the bravery they need to do something that scares them!