Thank goodness it's not last year
Last year I was in an abusive relationship, I was at my dream university but flunking, I had completely stopped talking to my parents (granted, they're not teddy bears but I need to keep people on my side by my side), I had stopped eating and I essentially pretended I didn't exist for months on end.
Now, I'm back with the person I love. I got my grades up and got offered a spot at my dream semester abroad program. I'm at my parents' place now trying to make amends with the past. I gained 8 lbs and I try to be mindful of my own existence.
It's still **** sometimes and I absolutely have to continue working in order to keep my head above the water. But when I think back to what I had last year vs what I have now, it's like I crawled out of hell. It's like taking a breath of fresh air. It's like standing on the deck of a boat and looking at the horizon. It's awesome.