Well that's what is feels like anyway progress wise.
I attended the anime society at my university (geeky I know
) and although I was bricking myself before entering the room - it took me a couple of minutes to actually build up the courage to enter, I actually overcame it for once and enjoyed myself. After some akward moments initially conversation wise, I managed to have some quite good small talk with a few people. I even managed to have a long conversation with quite a cute girl there too - which for me is unheard of. The cuter the girl, the worse my anxiety.
I'm really pleased that I managed to maintain eye contact alot during this as well.
Straight away afterwards, a friend that I know from back home invited me to a random movie night at his flat. He had a friend of his own there, but thankfully 2 people, dark room, one of which I know very well meant my anxiety was minimal. I was able to crack some jokes and really enjoy myself there as well.
All in all, a great evening, I haven't felt this happy in ages to be honest. If you guys get an opportunity to socialise, please take it no matter how many doubts you have. I was really debating with myself whether to even bother this evening, but I'm glad I did in the end. This quote that I read recently sums it up:
'If you don't play the game; you can't lose, but you also can't win.'
Thank you for reading.