Got a new therapist/started therapy again.
I've not had therapy in like a year, and I felt like I was getting to a point in my life where I needed to get one again. I was super anxious about finding one and starting again, as well as being disappointed and frustrated with myself for not being able to handle my own mental state and recovery without any support. Going in I was nervous, but my therapist was really nice. She was super easy to talk to. The easiest one so far, though that could be due to the amount of practice I've had with having different therapists over the years.
I'm still frustrated over having to go back to therapy, and overwhelmed/scared by thinking about the future and all the challenges, but at least I've made the first step back I guess.