First day as a cashier
Yesterday was the first day as a cashier. I was at the register almost non stop for three hours. It was really overwhelming and terrifying with all the things to remember and I made soo many mistakes. A man got mad at me, saying that I need some sleep and many stared at me in a bad way. But I did it. I got compliments from strangers, they said things like I did good as a cashier, and that made me smile, but I feel like they just said that because they saw me suffering and my face was probably all red. My co-worker said I did okay, but sometimes I felt like they made fun of me. I feel like a shítty person that I forgot to smile and say 'Have a good day' almost everytime, because I was so busy learning and stuff, and I was always so nervous that Id make a mistake again. I had so many negative thoughts, that I felt like my head was exploding. Being a cashier had always been my fear. When I was done - my head, eyes and ears hurt. But I did it, and when I came home my parents said they were proud of me. They said that if I continue this job at least till Im 18 (Im almost 17), then they will be REALLY proud of me. Cause both of my big brothers failed working when they were younger, and they still have problems with it now that they are older. Now I feel this preassure to not end up being like them. Do you think I can do this? I really really wanna become good at this. Im just so scared and I could give up now but I would hate myself if I did that.