Ok, a new round of exposure therapy.
This time I was with my new (and only) friend to assists me, well, just by being there as an outside observer to bring his feedback.
I did this for 10 days, 10 girls per day: walk out to a girl and ask her ''sorry, is your name X ?''. It's so rewarding when they smile, but I'm a bit confused when they laugh, cause I don;t know if they laugh cause of me being a loser or because they are entertained by the ''surprise'' question. Some are neutral, some back off a little. Eh, but it doesn't matter, this 10 day step is done.
Now I'm gonna move to more difficult interactions. This friend told me he did exposure therapy for like a year, almost daily, and it has changed his life, hope it's the same for me. He told me he even asked them stuff like: do you wanna be my girlfriend, or do you wanna marry me, or even nasty stuff like: hey, you look good, do you wanna meet later to get laid, yeah he is that crazy.
I'm now anxious of the difficulty of the next step, but hey, one has to go through hell to make it to heaven, right ?
I'm already seeing the results of those 10 days, today when I visited my mom at the hospital there were this 2 girls my age and I was able to speak, flirt, make them laugh, and the anxiety was at a fairly manageable level. In normal circumstances I would just sit there scared fantasizing how it would be to talk to them...
As a conclusion, I'm very satisfied with the partial results till now