Hi Lily, you do have courage. I read this article the day before I posted, that talked about accepting your anxiety, just being aware of it but not trying to fight it off as if you're in danger. Therefore, I had this mentality that I was just going to observe my thoughts and feelings and not resist my anxiety. It helped somewhat but I will say that I still struggle. Sometimes when I persist in spite of my anxiety with good results, it's a good feeling, but like you, I get nervous when communicating with my boss and I've been with my company for 2.5 years, so don't feel bad. I think many people get nervous when communicating with people in authoritative positions and that it's not unusual, especially when you're very much tuned in to your thoughts and feelings. I just wanted to respond to let you know you do have the courage. We all have courage. Don't let some of those pesky thoughts that pass through your mind tell you otherwise. They are just that - thoughts. The fact that you talk to your boss period demonstrates your courage. The fact that you're getting out of the house each day and working shows courage. The fact that you recognize your feelings and have come to a forum for support reveals your courage. Give yourself credit.