Yeah thanks, no problem. Actually I did well in that situation because I was assuming a role. I have trouble when I get to be "just me". But there I got roles. Of course they were filled by me and my personatlity and sponetiety... But the detachment from myself in that way apperantly was enough to detach the fear of judgement by others for me. I felt free to fool around, it was expected of me even, so ok cool, i can do that.
In the real world I've often been riduculed for the smallest things, so there I'm very cautious and don't feel free to fool around.
Seeing myself write this now, I also went to toastmasters, and although I didn't gave a speech yet I can see myself feeling comfortable with that. Or at least not more uncomfortable then someone without SA. So I guess it's not all about being detached from myself. I guess it has also got to do with what is expected of me. I mean...
With toastmasters it's also expected of you to speak up, so you in a sense have their approval already. Nobody is out to hurt you or bring you down. It's a safe environment where mistakes are accepted and considered as part of the process, and people want you to speak.
Also, I just want to add, the improv class WAS fun for me... I mean the acting itself. I was stunned sometimes about how I came up with all that stuff right on the spot. I mean I couldn't think of that even if I tried, and I guess that was the thing. I didn't think of it, I just did.
Reacting is the secret of improv theater. And the people that aren't good at it, I noticed they tried to think of what to say instead of just reacting. So for me it was kinda like those other people, they had SA when acting and I was doing fine. And then off stage I had SA and they were doing fine. So kind of the world in reserve.
In the end though, not being able to socialize off stage made me not peruse it further, because not being able to share the fun off stage really had a dampening effect on the whole experience. Otherwise it would have bean a real blast I'm sure.
I might try it again in the future, but then I'll have to really focus in on the off stage socializing and maybe try to use the on stage activity more as a run up to that.