Hello, I feel a sense of sisterhood or cousinry with you. I, on the other hand, have grown up unusually beautiful my whole life. I hated myself because people would judge me so harshly. I even believed what they were saying. I thought to myself, "If I weren't so thin, if people could see my illnesses and struggles on the outside, then I would make a ton of friends and get along with my coworkers."
Long story short, I gained 70 lbs, and even though I am not drop dead gorgeous anymore, I am still pretty enough to make other women feel uncomfortable around their men.
I still dont have many friends. People still judge me harshly, giving me angry looks from across the restaurant. Picking at every little thing to make their friends (or wives) feel better about themselves. I go to the library and people start whispering. I go to the grocery store and people are nosily waiting to see what products and food choices I make. EVERY TIME.
Not to mention I cant get a job. I blame poor interview skills and poor management. Men dont walk up to me and ask me out. I swear their best friends are talking them out of it because i'm multiracial.
These are some of the reasons i've come up with to explain why people treat me the way they do. Non of it is fact, no one has told me "you're too pretty". But I tell you what, sister. Its how you carry yourself. If you walk around like your unattractive, people will feed off of that and yes they are *******s! What you need to do is conduct yourself with class, and walk into the room with purpose. Dont dress like you work there, dress like you own the place (after you get the job of course).
And remember, you dont know how unhappy people are untill you look into their lives. No joke.