I tried the Dr Richards one many years ago cost a fortune, and i also found it incredibly tedious. He keeps repeating the same thing like a thousand times it's like yeah i got it the first time, i found his voice was so monotonous that I'd just fall asleep listening to the audio tapes!
I've also got a problem with alcohol, i'm feeling pretty low and depressed after my drinking session last night the booze just makes everything worse. Hope your skype therapist works out for you.
Hey bottleofblues. Man, I was the man with NO HOPE. I don't know why, I had never thought of suicide. Its just not in my DNA i guess to have suicidal thoughts. No career, didn't finish college, weird social life, a parasite to my mum and family. A burden for the house, a burden to society. In another forum, i was questioning about recovering from alcoholism and working on anxiety disorders and doing both at the same time. I was cut a certain way that my mind works better when I don't have conflicting ideas colliding. If you know what I mean. I've never gotten anything positive from a psycologist. Just depression, after being hopeful and see it doesn't work. In another post, i had posted about being an addict to amphetamines (aderall ritalin etc) and someone mentioned this book on ADHD called driven to distraction written by two shrinks with ADHD. At first I was like what the heck, i post a question asking about CBT and OCD and SAD and you start talking to me about ADHD.
A few days later i searched for the book (beeing today) i found it on youtube in audio. Wholly molly it finally hit me. I don't have any self worth at all. Because i have never accomplished anything worthwhile. I never graduated from college. have never kept a job. and all this is because i don't care about it. I'm to obsessed with feeling good. ADHD was my first disorder I've had it throughout my school life and it manifests in apathy. I never really cared about studying. Never gave a damn about a professional life. Ofcourse having social anxiety makes it much harder to graduate and pass classes. Just group work depressess me. Im such a weirdo, no one wants to go in group with me. But you know what, the fact that I have social anxiety doesn't mean that I can't study. I don't study because i never gave a damn. Because i procrastinated. Because I cared more about being popular than being a good student.
Put in another way, I know that if I had graduated, and had a job, had some money, I wouldn't be here *****ING and moaning about my SAD as bad as I am now. Right now, I am just that SAD. But what if i had more dimensions to me, I was a man with a job, with a title, with a business, in shape, that just so happens to have SAD, but you know what I don't really have it anymore, because my self esteem is so high, that i don't take my self so seriously. That is my problem, i take my SAD too seriously. I take myself too seriously and i never gave a damn about becoming a real man. If I could start a project and see it through and finish it I would definetly increase my self esteem and my SAD would take a hit. Right now, I can't really do that, but now I know where to attack.
If this doesn't relate to you dismiss it. Maybe you have a career, a job, a title. etc. maybe you don't have adhd like me. I know the combination of those three plus alcoholism really had me paralyzed. But i got the alcoholic part under control for today, and If i solve or better at the ADHD i can really, really increase my self esteem by doing esteemable acts and then prolly wont have social anxiety.
That being said. I recommend you to stop drinking man. If you have a drinking problem, go to AA, there are meetings everywhere, i mean. You can talk about anything in there. It has helped me tremendously. I could never recover from SAD if I where still drinking and drugging, because I use those drugs and drinks to socialize. Anyway, in AA, you will find a lot of relief. You will find real people that care about you and sense of community. I can't make you go obviously. But I can tell you, you are not even living to 1/50th of your potential if you are self-medicating like that.!!! I encourage you to go on the road to recovery. You will gain a lot, you might find that many of your other diseases get lifted. You're self esteem can increase. U'll have a support group. A sense of purpose. For me, it was not enough, i needed outside help, but if i'm sober there is a chance. If i'm drinking and drugging, I have no real chance of recovering from all my other ****.