I have had those thoughts often.
I thought: well, i am just a shya guy, there's nothing wrong with that.
Many people are like me, we just function differently.
But then again, i realize that it is definetely not normal when you have panic attacks and irrational fears/thoughts.
I swear to you gentlemen, that to be overly conscious is a sickness, a real, thorough sickness.
- Fyodor Dostoevsky Notes From The Underground
"Its noble to be timid, illustrious to fail to act, sublime to be inept at living....
- Fernando Pessoa The Book Of Disquiet
"Praying for the wave to come now
It must be for the very last time
It's twelve o'clock till midnight
There must be someone to blame..."
-Manic Street Preachers Australia