I noticed how young most of you on the forum are. It's GREAT that you have this avenue to share. When I was young, I was alone, with nobody to discuss my SA with, topped off with abusive parents and of course,no therapy or meds.
NOBODY, but NOBODY would even KNOW that I was scared to death inside, quite the opposite. When I am open about it, some people WON'T believe me!! lol Seriously. So, my point is don't ever think that it's only YOU, lots of folks are out there simply hiding feeling the same way.