I don't want to talk to someone about my issues, because frankly I don't like to talk to people so therapy is out of the question. Am I supposed to stay on pills for ever?
In college I studied communications to try to get me out of my comfort zone and force me to do speeches and work with people. It just made my anxiety 100 times worse when I finished and now I feel so screwed. I wish I had the motivation and concentration because I would go back to school and get a stay at home job.
I've had a stay-at-home job (e-commerce) and it was stifling, even for my introverted self. If you have no motivation, working at home as an independent will drive you insane.
I can relate to how you feel about your education. In my undergrad business program, I gave PowerPoint presentations weekly -- my longest was an entire class period (45 minutes). I was operating on adrenaline back then and am very persistent....that's the only way I made it through to graduation.
I actually went and pursued masters degrees in other fields, and couldn't use those degrees either once I finished. I don't believe getting another degree is going to help you much (unless the occupation you're looking at requires a license that requires a degree).
Some people do take pills forever....if they work for you and won't damage you further, then taking them is worth it to improve your quality of life. I'm back to giving the pill-route another try.....started my new regimine last week.
If you can't tell a therapist about your problems, is it possible that you're trying to suppress certain emotions that could be inhibiting you? Maybe if you force yourself to be honest about your situation, and put a voice it, you may improve. It does work for some people -- you can't discount it if you haven't tried it. I had a prideful male friend confide in me once, and he must have really liked the experience because he sort-of became addicted to it......would not shut up for months. lol But dwelling on the negative can be bad to -- you need to find that middle ground of acknowledging the problem, accepting the problem, then moving on from the problem. Good luck!