I tried EDMR therapy when I was 18 or so, I’d say at the time I was a bit confused by the purpose of certain things. Like the buzzers. I understood it was kinda meant to ground me but I don’t think that’s what worked best for me. It’s kind of “out there” in comparison to other therapies, like if you go from cognitive therapy and just discussing things to EDMR. I’m pretty sure my therapist at the time compared it to surgery, whereas other therapies kinda focus on putting a bandaid on it and moving along. My opinion on it, having tried both, is that EMDR is way more invasive.
I remember one session it low key felt like backwards DID (dissociative identity disorder) because I was made to explain and essentially give my emotions human like or physical traits. Which was one of the first exercises I remember. I had to picture a place in my mind where they where, describe the location, their relationships to one another. So I felt that was a bit different. And odd, but I understood I guess. She was trying to get to the root of what stemmed from where like my anxiety and depression. It also sort of made me better at validating/respecting my emotions? It’s definitely ‘different’ and even my therapist at the time said she was aware that it was a weird approach.
I stopped going before I could make any real progress. You obviously don’t want your therapist to put things in your mind but the guidance aspect is important. I’m not a professional so I have no idea, but I think maybe you’re not numb? But anxious? When I’m put on the spot, or uncomfortable, my mind goes blank. Around new people it’s also hard to be open, so some things take time.
"Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light;
I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night."