Oh, forgot to mention my own experience.
I was very against therapy my first time going, I had too much pride and the idea was just not appealing. I felt like I was sacrificing the control I thought I had or not have...whatever it was, I needed help and the option was there and it was my only option for help at the time.
It took me a month or two or weekly sessions to really understand and get a feel for my therapist. I stuck it through the whole "getting to know me sessions" and forced myself to go whenever I felt like not going and when I was really frustrated and thinking "what the f***k is the point" I confronted my therapist about it to see what he had to say. He was working and trying to piece things together as hard as I was working to convey the pieces clearly to him.
I was very fortunate that I had a very experienced therapist for my first experience and he ended up impressing and helping me out a great deal in becoming self aware of myself along with understanding my thought processes and behaviors.
Unfortunately, I made the decision to transfer schools and had to get a new therapist...she wasn't quite my cup of tea and I did not get a good vibe at all on my first few sessions, however I took control and requested a change.
The therapist I have now is different from my first, but we get along fine and his perspective is very helpful none the less. He keeps me hanging on for sure.
I will share that there were times I was very lazy and unmotivated about keeping consistent of my appointments, however, my therapists fortunately did care enough to reach out to me and call me and ask me what was wrong and etc and also gave me the pep talk I needed to keep myself on track of the goal I had for myself: getting better.
Don't give up! It's a journey and take it a day at a time.