Continually BSing my therapist (thread)
So I have this problem, where my psychiatrist/therapist-man sets up expectations in the form on this lovely hierarchy which I "participated" in developing. The problem is, I do jack **** and always get nervous/jittery in our sessions, then revealing that YES I did do everything I was assigned/asked/agreed to do!
For example, I've been driving and taking public transit everywhere to the city and beyond to get over the anxiety of travel. Also, I've been on two dates, which didn't pan out, but HEY I went on two dates. The first is only partly true, but I exaggerate by saying I did 4 or 5 times more traveling then I actually did. The dating thing is not true at all.
I've been this way for months. I always tell myself I'm going to stop lying, and maybe even admit to being a liar, but I keep digging myself in deeper.
What the hell can a boy do? He thinks we have some special counselor-patient bond that really doesn't exist. Therapy does nothing for me, only digs myself deeper and closer to a coffin.
Thanks and good day.