Do you feel like you don't fit in at church?
I've been a regular attender of two churches, and I just never feel like I fit in. At the current church I attend, I just feel so out of place. They try to make me feel included but I feel like I just am not as good as anyone else. It seems like most Christians I've known come from healthy families where they all go to church and aren't given to destructive behaviors and vices. I come from a family of alcoholics and my parents will not go to church or give any of it a reasonable try. Although much of my extended family seems to be healthy and attend church, my immediate family are alcoholics.
Also it seems like all of the Christians I know have nice houses and plenty of money, and live lifestyles that don't tie them down to a job 9-5 everyday yet I don't have any of that and I have to work regular hours.
Plus most I know are very outgoing and seemingly happy personalities. I am not. I think a lot of it has to do with how they were raised. Most people I know who once went to church and came from family situations like mine eventually ended up leaving the church and faith and end up in destructive behaviors such as what their parents were addicted to sadly.
I know we shouldn't want what others have but it is really upsetting. The more I get to know people the worse I feel about myself.
Underneath the cold November sky, I wait for you... As the pages of my life roll by, I wait for you... I'm so desperate just to see your face, meet me in this broken place...
Be a little brave for a little bit of time.