Afraid of picking "wrong" religion
I just feel completely and utterly depressed and hopeless right now. I'm 20 years old and in all my life, I've never had a religion. I've never even stepped into a church or a synagogue or anything like that. My mother is Jewish and my father is Catholic so I guess that makes me Jewish, technically. But I don't feel it. I may be Jewish by birth but since I've never even been to a synagogue once in my life, I just can't help but believe I'm not really Jewish. So lately, I've been looking into a bunch of religions.
I've been doing some research on Unitarian Universalism and seem to be pretty comfortable with their tenets but being the excessively anxious person that I am, I'm worried that I might actually pick the "wrong" religion. I know this sounds incredibly silly but it causes me a great deal of anxiety and fear. I really have no clue what to believe because if I'm wrong and for example, don't believe Jesus is the son of God, yet still lead a "good" life, I'll go to Hell despite everything I've done.
I guess the issue of Hell is huge with me. I just have this omnipresent fear that I might go to Hell, no matter if I become religious or not. I've sinned sexually a few times in the past few years and I feel utterly ashamed of what I've done. I feel like I'm branded for life and that I'm doomed to Hell.
I never thought at any time in my life that I'd have "Hell Anxiety" but it's definitely eating away at me at this point. I've lost pretty much all joy I used to have in life and walk around depressed and fearful all day. I just don't know what to do anymore. Ironically, I'm not suicidal since I'm so afraid of what will happen to me after death, so I guess that's a good thing.
I just want my life to get back to normal and for me to take pleasure in all the things I used to. I want the enjoyment I used to feel back in my life.