Yep, and I also had my heart broken and crushed into a million pieces. I think after the first time I fell in love, I was incredibly careful not to ever let myself get that attached to a person, it really is unhealthy. People say it is better to love and to have lost, than to never have loved at all - and I can see their point.. but that first relationship hurt a lot. I was 17 at the time, believed I would never be in a relationship, and once it did happen I think I just lost myself to it. Phew, I was pretty naive, and I was also inexperienced and believed all of the stuff I saw on TV about love, I was a hopeless..
When she broke up with me, I had contracted mono from her.. I was incredibly sick for weeks, and lost 60 pounds - I think a lot of that illness was due to just giving up on life, it really did hurt. It took a few years to get over it, no kidding.
Being in love for me, was like being on drugs. It was really strange, I felt a constant high, I would always be thinking about her, it was a real trip. Now that I look back on it, I think it is scary just how nutty I was about it. Not dangerous mind you, just wacky.. I was off in lala land. I felt like I was under a spell, to be honest. Have you ever seen a movie where someone has a love spell cast on them, or they drink a potion, whatever... yeah that is what I was like
It was a voluntary enslavement of the mind, which is hard to describe.
I did hook back up with her briefly, years later, in fact she is the reason I found my wife. She wanted to try to get back together and found me through the Internet. One of the reasons I moved to Florida was to see her again, but the "spell" had run its course by then though, and I was no longer in love with her.
I've loved since then, but as far as being "in love" to the point of a stupor as I had once been in, no thank god. I do love my wife, and would die for her, when she is away I miss her, I am to a point in love with her but not like the first and that really is a good thing. I don't feel like a slave to love with my wife, and that is not how love should be anyway.