Hello Im Michael,
Im 20yrs old, and im getting phychitry help and im on medication too. and im writing this because im desperate for help, ok heres alittle background im suffering from problems (mental health) ive got depression, post traumatic stress disorder, underactive thyroids and bi-polar, so thats a knock on my confidence but i try to not show it, so whats happening is ive not the sharpest knife in the draw when it comes to talking to women, ive been brought up as a gentleman in a place thats the opposite, so its difficult, women around here go for jerks and idiots who constantly upset them, and its like envy that i have towards the guys because im like how did he do it?
so my hobbies are shotokan karate, (was a boxer, quit due to bad management so went back to my roots)
im studying welding & fabrication - mechanical engineering - fitting.
got one good friend
im quiet and lock myself away,
but now its come to a point where i cant see my worth anymore, im not going to get into my past history but its still happening now, and it feels like a constant battle inside,
but to the question in hand, am i ugly? every female and even some males (weird) say im ugly and insult me all the time, even a random girl sat next to me and said ''god your ugly'' and my friend called her a *****, but its happening all the time, and all i want is a sweet intellectual women, who is loyal and trustworthy, i just want to be happy, ive not been happy in 17years :'( i had love once and she broke my heart, and self harming started and she kept making me do it more due to my vunerbility so i still stayed with me and then she cheated on me on christmas day.
but am i ugly? why cant i find love again, ive had alot of pain in my life too much to handle and all i want is to be happy.
my facebook - http://www.facebook.com/The.Pride.Of.Yorkshire
everyone says ill look better with contacts and long hair but why should i change
thankyou for your time